So I'm joining the crowd - I am officially a blogger. Well, not necessarily a successful one yet but time will tell. I figured with Malachi due anyday that my life is about to reach a warp speed (you can thank my husband for the Star Trek reference ::sigh::) I have yet to understand or know and that this might be the most efficient way to keep loved ones updated on the incredible thrills of the Leichner life.
On a sidenote, cute backgrounds, photos etc will eventually take their place on my blog...but only after a very user-friendly crash course of blogging from my much more technology adept sister. (Thanks in advance Ging:)
So our life right now is quickly at a standstill. Malachi James Leichner has been hanging out in my belly for almost 39 weeks now and apparently is really comfortable. I have been dilated at a 4-4 1/2 for 2 weeks and am 90% effaced. Dr. Kauffman is truly surprised that I have not gone into labor yet (as is the rest of the world apparently) and continues to say that it could/should be any day.
Honestly this week has been pretty hard for me...his due date isn't technically until December 2nd but I've been told that there's no way I'll make it until then. What makes it hard is that for two weeks I've been told it could be any time and yet nothing is happening - I know that God's timing is perfect and I completely trust it...but it gets really tiring having to answer to texts/calls/and comments all day every day of "why haven't you had your baby yet?" and "you're still pregnant?" or "haven't you popped yet?" I know that everyone who asks is asking in love and they're just excited...but my people pleaser side tends to come out and I feel like with every passing day I'm just disappointing someone or putting a wrench in their future plans. It sounds ridiculous I know - how could it be my fault that I haven't gone into labor? Maybe it's the hormones causing more sensitivity - whatever the reason it's hard not to feel at fault.
With all that said, I praise the Lord that Malachi is healthy and that this pregnancy has gone so well. I know that the longer he's in me the better it is for him - and God knows exactly when he's supposed to make his grand debut! So until then, I'll trust and I'll wait. It doesn't matter that I don't have a choice, I need to surrender my desires and trust that God truly does know what's best. So consider me surrendered...(i need a white flag)...
More updates to come - have a blessed and wonderful day:)
2 comments:
Sis - I love it! :) I'm glad you caved... I promise it'll be easier to keep everyone updated & I'll help you with whatever :) love you!!
Welcome to the blogging world! I didn't even know you were pregnant until about a month ago. So here is a late congratulations! And your pictures are amazing. I will be praying that everything goes well with your delivery.
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